Blog, Family, frustration, mood, relationships

Back to normal???

I haven’t been blogging due to:

-coming to terms with getting a divorce we didn’t want but was needed due to circumstances
-coming to terms that all grew up knowing and what I thought shaped me was now causing conflict in my heart

But after reading through some emails today, the @candidbelle reminded me that life will continue to throw things my way and my faith and determination will sustain me regardless. So I will get back to my original purpose which is to document my journey, good and not so good.

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Blog, Family, love, relationships

VINTAGE 40

I am so blessed to have reached my 40th birthday, I’ve been loved my whole life first by my parents and extended family and then my two best friends who helped me raise my two girls, Briana and Amia.

I love to party with my family and friends.

I’m looking forward to my next chapter. #40thbirthday

♫ Music: Everyday Birthday – Swizz Beatz made with @flipagram . http://flipagram.com/f/SDZKJekKQF

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BiPolar, Blog, Family, frustration, love, mood, relationships

Helpless

I anticipated my first two weeks of March being hard, especially with the recent separation, birthday (12th), filing for divorce (13th) and anniversary (15th) all in the next two weeks.
But also having another issue come up, is threatening my mental health. I am confused on my next steps and if I am projecting or legitimately pissed.
I have been praying for guidance, peace, and clarity all weekend but I keep coming back to a need to declare war on my family, that will not end well for us. I’ve grown up with a sense of self, family, and faith that in the last year continuously gets trampled in the vain to keep the peace and I am over it. I have to take a stand and do what I feel is best, I doubt I fail but am willing of it beings some resolution and possibly fixes things.

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1sttimehomebuyer, Blog, goal, housing

Tweet from @beachbudget

Loved this article, when growing up I wanted to live in Carytown, because all the houses were painted cute pastel colors and I loved the art community vibe. So fast forward 30yrs, I actually live very close and they were shops not houses, lol. My plan is to buy in that area but only spending up to $100k for a 3 bdrm open concept home.

@Beachbudget: How the Vision for my Dream House Changed | Young Adult Money http://po.st/HPoRCy via @YoungAdultMoney
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Blog, Budget, finances, savings

Tweet from @Phandroid

I’ve been using @Digit for about a month and can say its pretty neat to be saving and not have to track, move, or think about it. I’ve only noticed when categorizing my budget weekly. Love it.

@Phandroid: How I learned to stop worrying and let an SMS robot manage my savings http://ift.tt/1Bcpe23 http://twitter.com/Phandroid/status/570619709076475904/photo/1
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Blog, Budget, down payment, Family, love, mood, planning, relationships

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Today was a snow day, not really it was a paid holiday, President’s Day. Around 1pm it started snowing, first real snow since 2009. Its been a quiet day, grateful for that. Thinking of working from home tomorrow, keeping busy to keep my mind of missing my friend.
Had my 1st meeting with my financial planner today, super excited. His timeline is was more planned than mine so gotta sync that, 2020 is not the move date, lol.
No new hives today but still have old ones that are itchy.
I am grateful and still going.

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BiPolar, Blog, frustration, mood

Manic Monday…..

I’ve been wrestling with the amount of transparency to share in regards to everything on my blog. I’m an open book but how do I express when I’m physically, mentally, and emotionally struggling in other areas?
So I’ve been quiet, allowing my emotions to get the best of me, and just praying. But today, my AHA moment came when, I had to hear the doctor tell me that my stress was causing my health issue, and had to back on meds. That was like a ton of bricks for me. Money has never been a move for me, as long as I can sustain my lifestyle which is far from extravagant I’m happy.
Plus I was letting someone steal my joy,  and make me feel less than, not my style.

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Blog, Budget, finances, Food, goal, planning, shopping, spending

Tweet from @onesmartdollar

Loved this article, he totally gets me, while being picky is nit an actual allergy or dietary restriction it impacts my budget. But not deterred I’m back to try again in February, with meal planning and no spend days to get that Grocery, Eat Out, Social category down.

@OneSmartDollar: You spend how much on food every month?! Last month I ventured into the unknown and created … http://bit.ly/18EQBGW via @frugalingorg
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